Meeting

I am in MO right now, waiting for J to arrive at my hotel room and I am EXTREMELY nervous. I had been planning to come out for about 3 week and have had a really hard time getting in touch with her this week- only speaking briefly with her yesterday morning. I feel like there is something a little off and I wonder if, because I want this so badly, my tendency is to ignore my feelings. That is one big reason why I am here, though- to see where my instincts take me. So, I will meet her in less than 90 minutes and will report back here.